To me, From you

I didn't know I would have miss a person so much,

it feels so different not meeting each other for more than a week......

I]ve kept the necklace he bought me in the box for almost a month without wearing it, till the night before i took it out and wore it again. Felt much better having it on my neck. It's a birthday present from the silly boy, i remembers how he actually planned to surprise me by secretly putting it in my bag. Unfortunately his plan didn't work out as he thought it would be. I went home and chuck my bag a side without even taking a glance of it. He then finally tells me he put something in my bag and asked if i saw it. Till the next morning only I check it and this is what he bought me,

A love knot necklace,

What does it mean? I have no idea.

He never tells me what does it symbolizes,

Anyhow this is something i appreciates a lot,

Till then,

-The End-

Whisper

How do i describe silence? BORING & SCARY.

Guess I'll have to add another description to silence,"the heart moment". Every word seems so clear and loud in the inside. Silence makes me listen to what's in within and never did I realize it was so loud, too loud that I thought I've accidentally voice it out. Haha, it was funny how I finds my heart speaks louder than my mind. Never once I have that till last night.

Having the 'him' lying his head on my shoulder,closing his eyes, and dozing away makes me smile.My heart starts speaking, telling me how IT is enjoying IT's time doing nothing at all but feeling the warmth from the 'him'. "Missing you so much" were spoken so loudly in the inside, which it doesn't really makes sense to the mind but it does to the heart coz that is how it feels like. Though the moment were only lasted for an hour or less but it certainly did felt like something. Something that is explainable but I don't know how to.

Looking at his face, touching his nose,eyes and lips with my eyes shut, makes me remember every detail of him. Now that whenever I close my eyes, I'll see him. :) He is here with me.

H,

Till then,

-The End-

Lost

Starts planning for the future?? that is just too hard to start with. I couldn't even think straight when im planning for the degree course i'll be pursuing next. Deciding the last phrase of my studies (not like i'll be going for master) is not easy. Gosh, this is just so difficult to think about during the hol. So,I've decided to be a little coward and avoid the planning for a while,maybe a few month, go for part times and see the 'world' until i actually decided what I want.

Ahh felt like a lost soul heading no where now.....Hopefully this wont last long and i'll be finding my so called 'path' of life. Okay that's just over exaggerating, all i need is to find a great job and excel in it. So i can buy my beloved VOLVO :)

Till then,

-The End-

I just couldn't wait till chinese new year is over and I can finally enjoy my holiday without doing anything at all. Weekend is here again, dating is on :) Sadly though im on holiday but I can only date on weekends too :(. But it's okay I kinda like it, can't wait to meet u boy boy :D

Karaoke

Karaoke session with the girls. Come let's do it again! It was a maxi day, everyone dress up on maxi long dress hehe. :)Had lots of fun.

Started of with fried wantansssss.
4 plates of fried wantanss.

It was just the four of us for the K session but it's good enough to make the whole room full of noise that would actually contributes to the sound pollution.



Just don't understand why are we so different physically,
now who's to be blame?
My mum of coz!

But it's okay I have mun yee with me :D

Marianne in action
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cass tries to stop her
so she can finally talk


but she just don't stop
and here comes the violent Cass KIU

Afterall the fun,here comes to an end,
ended up camwhoring in the toilet
as usual :D




Meet up with charmaine and had our Korean food for dinner

Till then,
-The End-

I've becoming super sensitive never like before, I'm a person who looks at things on the bigger picture but now I'm just being so different. Changes happened and I don't like it. Felt as though I'm not me anymore. Pissed off over small little issue. Gahhhh...What's wrong with me...I think i'm just too into this. I've put too much concentration on this. Every little things makes me sensitive. When things just don't works the way i want i get all so frustrated. Unexpected things happened makes it worst. finding out things that I initially thought it was all clean up but it wasn't. I don't know why am i being so stubborn for being so bossy. Maybe it's my nature that I like things going my way when i want it that way. and when things aren't going like how i expected it to be for the first, second then the third time I'll get all crank up. Being too sensitive over things makes me feel so damn irritated. I think I'm putting in too much expectation and feelings to this and that I'm losing all my senses. I am no longer thinking rationally and am being overcome by my emotions.
It's as though I'm super fragile now. My heart were intruded anytime. Small little things happened, it all goes straight to my heart not even my mind first. I felt like a emotional kid now. Getting bad mood over rejected request, sad over jealousy,it's all upside down.
I need a break from all these. I need myself back. i admit my confidence were lost in a bit.

I am good. I've always been confident on myself and never once doubt myself. I want to regain the self back. This weekend will be the best time to patch myself back by feeding myself with hangouts with my mates and reading more articles to make me feel like I'm filled with new information.

Till then,
-The End-

2+1 trip to the ZOO

Holiday-ing now like a free bird, from super busy to suddenly busy no more. My brain juice is being put to holiday now, like finallyyyyy after so long. Ahhh so well, i'm spending my holiday helping my mum up with new year biscuits,as always and I'm also starting to spend lots of time with the boy boy already. Just recently he brought my niece and I to the National Zoo. To be frank, it was my first time ever to the Zoo.

The first time ever to meet the Giraffe face to face, no joke they are REALLY HUGE AND LONG!! My jaw literally drop once i saw them and they are the first animal we saw once we entered. For god sake, i felt really small.

There were flamingos flying everywhere like no body business. They were like walking next to us then a few flew pass us then some in the cage with others, Literally see-ing them everywhere BUT not near the lion or tiger. Talking about the lion, it is heart breaking and it's so... how do i put it...Disappointing perhaps. I've never seen such skinny lion in my whole entire 20 years of life before. Even the lion in Africa is much more chubbier than this. Why is our lion looking so kesian, left only bones??

The bones were obvious to be seen. Are they not feed or what? It's saddening. Besides, we've met the elephant, white rhino, the deers, birds, crocodile,snake and super lots of animals.

From this
to
that

The arcade moment

It was a trip of an adult with two child, and obviously I'm the adult. The boy boy turned into another child when it comes to playing with the niece. Start calling each other monkey and chasing each other around. After the Zoo, it was the Alvin & the chipmunks movie. Had our meal in A&W and to the arcade at the Wangsa Walk. The two was having fun playing the street basketball machine and I were there watching and capturing the moment. :)
Anyhoo, it was a tiring trip but yet it's quality time.


It's nice looking at the two of them bonding with each other so well. I felt super blissful at that time. Spending quality times together certainly made me realize a lot of things. One of it will be the effort. The effort of making the bonding works really made me feel so warm in the heart and looking at the both clicking so well makes me smile deep inside. Thank you for giving me that :). It's a satisfying trip I would say.

OH YA!!! IMPORTant ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

I, Aileena Chong, has finally graduated my DIPLOMA course! LIKE SUPER FINALLY after 2 years plus. Please people gratz me. I deserve a pat on my head for this success :). Hehehe It's know i have more to go for degree but yea as for now, the diploma would be my first achievement :).Thank myself and everyone around me.

Till then,
-The End-

At times when you're towards failing all you need is supports. Once when I was young I have her to give me a hug or shoulder whenever i needed one. Whenever I'm all stressed up, she would try her best to cheer me up by cooking my favorite dishes and tells me everything will be alright.To her I'm her hope,I'm the brightest among all and that made me a promise to her that I'll excels in life. I've always promise myself not to fail and try my best to pass every possible exams so it wont delays my time in proving to her what I've promised her. Though she's no longer here to spread out her arm to hug me but I believe shes always with me. No one holds me like how she does before.

I miss you so much, Popo. :'(

Till then,
-The End-

300km's feeling

The boy boy is back to where he is from, 300km far away from here. Weekends with assignments is pathetic :(. Couldn't make it up for the soul-mate on her birthday make it worst and assignments is no where near to complete. Everything is just so incomplete. :(

Anyhoo let's spur up my pathetic life with some happy moments. The boy boy is being so damn sweet. Woke up to his lots of miss calls makes me smile. He must be super pissed giving me such number of miss calls. He said : I'm super worried, haha it's hard to not believe that, when u receive so many miss calls. He'd been calling for 3 hours non stop. Haha now that I realize he really do cares about me more than I even knew. Never been really appreciated like this before, maybe I was by others too but never did came across my senses.

Maybe it's the fact that he is 300km far away from me that got me feeling as though I've not met him for ages while I actually met him only 2 days back. Gosh why is it like that......
Knowing the fact that next week will be a week full of assignments due and test I wont be meeting him and weekends he will be heading back to his crib again. Another weekend ahead of me facing the 300km far away situation.
=(

Okay i know i know it's only a week not meeting what so big deal.
Anyhow not like I wont meet him next week.
Somehow we will still meet coz of my selfishness, I will somehow request for meeting and the boy boy would somehow struggle his time to come over and fulfill my request. Sometimes i really think i'm being too self-centered in all these without thinking on behalf of him. But is just that I cant control and stick to my initial plan,when theres an option thrown over to me. The stupid boy has his flaws too, he like to mind-fuck me with option. He will be like : you really don't want me to go over? Really don't want? OMG when you got option of coz u will choose the one that you satisfied most right?. Not my fault also what.... Dont u guys agree with me? So now who is to be blame on these struggles? Me or him?
Ok lahhh i would say both is equally itchy backside!
Thats all for today,
Heading back to work
:(

Till then,
-The End-

The 7am
human alarm clock
you know what
I mean
;)

Till then,
-The End-